I Swear I Asked

(Written May 2022)

Have you ever

Blamed someone

For not being there

As if you asked them

Reached out for help

But really you didn’t

Didn’t type it out or

Didn’t hit send

So whose fault is it?

Well, not mine since I

Fell apart.

I wasn’t in a good mindset but—

Oh, who am I kidding?

It’s my fault

I shouldn’t have needed help

I’m sorry.

Delete. Delete. Delete.

I was never here.

I’m fine.

Let me just type a short message.

Maybe saying,

”Hello, how are you?”

And if you ask,

I’m doing just fine.

My lovely smile

is pasted on my face because

I don’t want you to know I just

Failed at asking for help.